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Imagine the world without guilt.
I'm sure there would be many people that wouldn't change, due
to their impeccable characters and strong moral fibers. But I'd
venture to say that a large majority of the planet, without a
second thought, would do whatever felt good. Scenario: Chaos.
In my opinion, guilt is among the
only things that keeps our society in normal working order. If
not for our guilty consciences, we would bring destruction upon
ourselves. Call me conservative, but I really think it's true.
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morality and reason was lost, and for one moment in time,
my desires were much more powerful than anything else. |
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I've felt "guilt pangs"
in the past, but I'll never forget the one time that I felt truly
guilty. In eighth grade I convinced my parents to let me spend
my winter vacation with my grandparents in Miami Beach. It was
my first time vacationing alone and I was overwhelmed with feelings
of pride and the joy of my newly forged independence.
Upon arrival in Miami, I was immediately
enveloped in the warmth and loving attention of my grandparents.
Palm trees, sun, home cooked meals, and video arcades filled my
days in "Pleasantville". I was uninhibited and flying
high, perhaps a bit too high.
On the third day of my pleasure-thon,
I walked with my grandmother to the pharmacy to pick a prescription
and a couple of odds and ends that she needed around the house.
As she paid the cashier and shot the breeze with a few of her
friends that she had bumped into, I roamed the isles looking for
nothing in particular.
The toy section caught my eye, and
I cravenly entertained the idea that my grandmother would buy
me something. There was nothing more than the typical drugstore
fare, but the selection always appears especially exciting in
the eyes of a child.
One small key chain grabbed my attention.
I don't remember what the key chain did and why I thought it was
so special, but I remember exactly what I was thinking when I
first saw it: There was no chance that my grandmother would buy
it for me.
She would just tell me that it was
garbage and that I should put it back. But I thought that it was
really cool and I had to have it. I had never thought of stealing
anything before then, and it never even crossed my mind again,
but as I stood there staring at the key chain, I could think of
no other option.
All morality and reason was lost,
and for one moment in time, my desires were much more powerful
than anything else. My grandmother called for me to come. I panicked.
I put it in my pocket.
Years later I'm still ashamed of
what I did. No one knew that I had stolen the key chain, but I
knew. For months I wasn't able to look my parents in the eyes.
If only they knew, they would be so disappointed.
I threw the key chain in the garbage
and watched the garbage truck take it away. I was hoping that
as long as it was out of sight I would be able to forget about
it, but the feelings of guilt didn't go away.
What did I learn from all this?
Having a guilty conscience, as long
as it is not overdone, can be used to your advantage. As soon
as your "Jimminy Cricket" chirps in, don't try to justify
what you've done, rather reassess what has happened and see what
can be done to right the situation (before it gets worse).
The whistling is optional, but always
let your conscience be your guide.
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